Life changes. And that's an undeniable fact that I have to face everyday. I have to accept the fact that the happiness that I'm feeling now wouldn't last forever. But I'm pretty sure though it wouldn't last forever, it will, come back when I least expect it. I miss how I used to be positive about life, just about everything, about myself and the people around me. I know I can't possibly please everyone, but I just hate the fact that I couldn't make the people around me happy with my presence because I know I didn't try hard.
I've moved on, and I will keep moving on. I know I've hurt the people who love me, who care about me without me realizing it. If only they knew what I'm going through. If and only if. Things are hard on me, I kid you not. Somehow I just feel like forgetting those worldly matters and sleep off the worries and wake up with a bliss feeling like how I want it to be. But I know it's almost impossible. That is why I've stopped asking God for making my life easier, I pray wholeheartedly for a stronger soul instead, because I won't be twenty four seven high on life, I whine and I cry.
Despite the emotional wreck I've been through, I couldn't be thankful enough for that one blessing He had given me, let only Allah and I know what that is. InsyaAllah, I will treasure and cherish it the best that I could. May this blessing able to put a smile on my face everyday, the moment I wake up and before I go to bed. I may not appear to have a good life as what other people thought I should have, but Allah knows what I've been through, what I'm going through and what I will go through. I may stumble on my way, I may slip and fell, but I hope I'll get through it with stronger feet to stand up on my own and stronger hands to keep praying. Mistakes are inevitable and life is nothing without them, so let it be.
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