Sammy.

Chord Overstreet

You're not gorgeous, you're not hot, but looking at you just melted my heart. 

sing 'just the way you are' to me every night please?

Forgiveness.

Kemaafan adalah dendam terindah buat saudaramu yang melakukan kesilapan. Tidak ada manusia yang sempurna dan maksum sehingga tiada satu kesalahan pun yang dilakukannya terhadap saudaranya melainkan ‘Nabi Muhammad SAW.

Tiada manusia yang sempurna melainkan saling menasihati antara satu sama lain bagi memperbetulkan kesilapan dan memperbaiki diri menjadi insan yang lebih baik.

Firman Allah SWT:
“Iaitu orang yang mendermakan hartanya pada masa senang dan susah, dan orang-orang yang menahan kemarahannya, dan orang-orang yang memaafkan kesalahan orang lain. Dan (ingatlah), Allah mengasihi orang-orang yang berbuat perkara-perkara yang baik.”
(Surah Ali-Imran:134)

“Tidaklah dapat kita mengenal orang melainkan pada tiga keadaan, iaitu tidak dapat diketahui orang pemaaf melainkan ketika dia marah, tidak dapat diketahui orang yang berani kecuali ketika dia berjuang dan tidak dapat dikenal seorang sahabat melainkan ketika kita dalam kesusahan.”
(Luqman Al-Hakim)

Manusia kan,  memang susah nak maafkan org lain, rasa mcm kita pulak yg salah. yg pasti kalau kita maafkan org lain, kena buang ego tu jauh2, hati pun lebih tenang. Ganjarannya adalah keampunan Allah, hanya dgn memaafkan org lain. 

Subhanallah.

Scratch that.

It's bad when people start making assumptions about you, i mean bad assumptions. and i don't want to be that kind of person either. but come to think, people make assumptions based on what they see *to me hearsay doesn't count* I just feel bad because i know you well, i know who you really are and i know you're trapped in the dark side of yourself, you were just confused. I just feel awful. Yes awful. and for that, I'll keep my mouth shut, because the more I talk, the more people think I make bad assumptions about you.

This is what I need to know.

I know.

I know you hate me. but i don't know how much. kdg2 terfikir, teruk sgt ke salah yg aku buat selama ni, tp tu la manusia berubah. and kalau betul manusia berubah, then why can't you see that i've changed, changed for good? good that i want to fix what was wrong. and it's too bad that i didn't even get a second chance. well thats life, we don't always get what we want right. like everyone says, everything happens for a reason, ada hikmahnya. don't worry, i don't hate you, never once in my life. in fact, i pray for your success every time i lift my hands, everyday. because to me tak guna pun nak membenci, cukuplah dgn kain putih di hati ini yg diberi sejak dilahirkan yg mungkin kini penuh dgn tompok2 hitam. 

No grudge, you know me.

They made my day :)

I had a great day yesterday, at least there were people who made me smile and laugh for real, which i didn't get to have one for the past few months. semalam buat mkn2 sikit, for my closest friends, a big thanks to Roza Azaliya, Syarifatun Nadzirah, Ifkar Azmi, Naquiah Malek, Hazman Zohdi. best sgt dpt jumpa korang, pegi dinner lg till midnight. really had a great time. insyaAllah, after final, kita gather lg okay? annddd, our plan of going for a vacation hopefully will be a dream come true yea. I love you guys so much!

best friends forever :)

so many stories and secrets revealed, thanks to them for making me see the things that have blinded me, yeah i might lose something good, but one thing i know, i might gain something even better, InsyaAllah :)

ah finally i could find some time to sit down. and tell stories for what had happened these past few weeks. well last 2 weeks, yeah i had a great raya with my family, knowing that all my siblings could gather for the first time in my life, with the new comers, family dah expand haha, i'm thankful and grateful enough that despite all the obstacles we all went through, i could see pieces of happiness patching up on everyone's face, alhamdulillah :)

The Adlan's Family :D

with mama and papa, obviously haha

my lovely sister

meet my siblings

i love you papa <3

anddd its me :D

have i changed? hmm, maybe.

one week after raya, trials, nightmare! but i'm gonna have a super duper nightmare soon, one month left before final exam. cukup ke masa? kalau tak cukup, kena lah cukupkan rite, whatever it is, lets strive our best and get over it, yeahhh can't wait for that :D 

p/s: life is still a long way to go. so lets live life to the fullest okayy? :))

The first cut.

I can close my heart to things that I don't want to see or things that you don't want me to see, but I can't close my heart to awful things that I don't want to feel. But someone told me, let your tears come rolling down your face, let them water your soul, your broken soul.

p/s: Allah knows the best.

Life.

What defines you well is how strong you are to get back up after you fell down. 

Yes, we all fall down at one time or another but we don't know how much strength we need to stand tall again, to cherish the life that we used to have. 

I always thought of myself being a good Muslim, not perfect, but good that I always try to do what Allah wants from us and repent for whatever sins that I've done. How I wish I have strong and sustained faith to face all of the unexpected

obstacles in this life because I know no matter where I am, that this faith will always be tested, tested in ways that I could have never dreamed of.

But at second thought, I still have my family who always have my back and always there to reach my hands whenever I was about to fall. To have lived for 19 years made me realized that people walk in and out of my life and those who stay are the one who needs me in their life and values me. But I know, some people who walked out of my life see the goodness in other person and not me, not anymore. Its ok, I'm not perfect though. Maybe the joy or happiness that they were looking for didn't exist in me. And maybe this is the time for my faith to be tested that even the people I loved left me. If that person was looking for perfection in life, then I guess that person has to live for a thousand year to find what she's or he's looking for. 

You can only find perfection in life when you live the life you love and love the life you live, when you brighten other people's life, when you know what you want in life and when you know that only one person who loves you enough can complete your life.

p/s: instead of saying this life is like a roller coaster, I would say life is like a box of chocolates, loaded with surprises, some delightful and some awful. The yummy ones of course are mouth-watering and easy to swallow, but the yucky ones are hard to stomach.