June 17, 2011

Nervous. That's the word.



Andddd the battle starts tomorrow!
I seriously have no idea how am I gonna face it,
but insyaAllah everything's gonna be just fine. Just fine.

Doa, usaha & tawakal.


8 days till the holiday begins!
Go.Start.Counting.



p/s: Nothing should bring you down when Allah is always by your side to lift you up :)


June 13, 2011

My bad.




I saw the pictures of yours and yet, they somehow stabbed me right in the heart.

This happened few days ago and I know I shouldn't be thinking about it anymore, or at least keep it just to myself. And ultimately, I shouldn't be feeling like this right now. I can't help myself but to put this into writing with the hopes that it'll end right here. I'm tired of feeling broken-hearted and overwhelmed. You have no idea how bad I want this feeling to go away permanently. That kind of feeling just come and go whenever I see your names, and what's worst for me? To see those pictures of your happy moments. And the next thing I realize tears come rolling down my cheek, and that just happen.

That's just plain stupid. I know.

Dear heart, please be good to me. I need you and the brain to co-operate this time.
Make me happy, or even if you want me to be sad, logically please?




p/s:  Just for once, I want someone to be afraid of losing me.


June 3, 2011

Rasa apa?

Mimpi apa tak tau lah nak update blog hari ini. So layan je lah.
Hati tak tenang. Fikiran tak tenteram. Rasa gelisah tak tentu arah.
Ini lah yang aku rasa bila byk sgt benda nak buat dlm satu masa, bukannya ada masalah negara pun.
Rasa mcm tak cukup masa. Tapi bila syaitan dah mula bisik dlm hati, 'ala give up je lah, next time try lagi'
aku start rasa down and terus call mama. Bukan nak bagi mama risau, tapi aku tahu kata-kata seorang ibu boleh buka pintu hati seorang anak utk terus bangun, walaupun dgn ayat yg pendek 'lala kena ingat, Allah Maha Adil, Dia tak bagi sekarang, insyaAllah akan ada masa depan, tapi bkn dgn tawakal je, mcm mana Allah nak bg kejayaan kalau tak berusaha, so kena berusaha, and mama papa tak pernah putus2 doa utk lala'  jgn cerita lah air mata keluar byk mana. Tapi tu lah manusia, ada masa kita kuat ada masa kita lemah. 
"Sungguh manusia diciptakan bersifat suka mengeluh" [70 : 19]
"Dan janganlah kamu (merasa) lemah dan jangan (pula) kamu bersedih hati, sebab kamu paling tinggi (darjatnya), jika kamu orang beriman [3: 139]
Rasanya ramai yg tahu ayat kat atas, 'La tahzan, innallaha ma'anna'
Jangan bersedih, Allah bersama kita.
Jangan sedih walau tak ada seorang pun yg sudi membantu.
Kena kuat, sebab kekuatan yg kita ada itulah akan bantu kita jalani hidup hari demi hari.

So, bila ada masalah nak buat apa?
bila sedih nak buat apa?
Bangun, pergi toilet, ambil wudhuk,
bentang sejadah, solat. 
Tak kisah lah solat sunat ke solat sunat taubat ke.
and berdoalah, bercakaplah dgn Allah,
merintih menangislah.
Allah rindukan kita, sebab tu Allah bg ujian,
Allah rindu tangisan kita,
sebab bila kita senang, senang jugaklah kita lupakan Allah.

Haa, hari ini dah masuk bulan Rejab, bulan Allah.
Jom buat apa yg patut, buat mana yg mampu :)

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p/s: There comes a time in every life when the world gets quiet 
and the only thing left is your heart.
 Have a heart that remembers Allah SWT.