Misery.

I woke up, and i feel inspired. yes i am.

but don't ask me how long it'll last.

and i don't know why, perhaps i had a good sleep?

i said to myself, do something that wouldn't make my life seems prosaic like it does now, just anything,

so that i wouldn't wonder what are the wrong, silly things i did.

yeah i was thinking what i want in life, minus the happiness that i want in my life now and the hereafter.

i asked myself, are they things that i genuinely want to achieve? i mean i seriously need a lot of hard work to get done, b'cos i know i'm not what you call typical genius like some of my friends are, but hey, we have different goals, different desires, different dreams aren't we? so let's just not put critics on others b'cos what you believe may not what i believe, what seems right to you may not seems right to me.

question mark, will i be happy as ever, look better to others if i have what i desire.

then i had this thought in mind, i need to rethink, reconstruct my mind, reorganize everything, whether the i-want-and-need-this wishes are worthy targets or not, that is something i truly want, rather than something i'm being told by others i should want. 

it's a big day tomorrow man, the first paper starts less than 24 hrs from now.

INTENSITY, yeah thats the word.

p/s: Allah, help me please, your love, blessings and guidance are so much needed :(